Raised Roman Catholic and went to Catholic schools from first grade through the end of high school. At the beginning of my senior year of high school (shortly after turning 17), I began doubting the existence of God. I wanted to continue believing in God but there were some things in life that led me to question everything I had believed. I fell into nihilism and an existential depression.
Now, thirteen years later, I understand that I needed this phase and now have gratitude for it.
Ended up exploring all the biggest religions of the world.
Had my first child in 2023 at age 26. He changed my whole world permanently. My son is the best part of my life.
I had been quite selfish before he came along. Becoming a father required me to change a lot.
When I was 27 (if I recall correctly, I was 27), I was desperate and feeling totally alone (and sometimes even hopeless). So, I prayed to God, asking for God to show me that S/He exists. Over the following several days, I experienced about a dozen synchronicity experiences. It was amazing! I am a math teacher; I know when something is statistically improbable. I experienced not one or two meaningful coincidences in the days after my desperate prayer, but several. That was my proof.
Some months later, when I was about 28, I again felt that I needed to know that God was really out there. God performed amazing miracles freeing the Jews from slavery in Egypt. Even so, they soon doubted God. Ridiculous, right? I, too, doubted God and God’s existence only a few months after all the amazing signs sent from Him. But God is merciful and loving. So, He gave me another week of one synchronicity experience after another.
I just turned 30 in July 2026. The last few months in my 20s, God called me to Him. Aggressively. Strongly. Firmly. It started with an interest in Christianity. Then an obsession with Greek mythology and Norse mythology. (I do agree with Bryan that these traditions are demonic. I never thought of them like that before. I just admired them for their incredible insight into the inner and outer tendencies of humans. Heard Bryan call them demonic a few days ago. Hate to admit it but I know now that they are!) After studying and playing with the Greek and Norse mythological traditions for a few weeks this spring, I became extremely interested in the Bible.
95% of my free time the last few months has gone into exploring the stories of the Old and New Testaments. And related stuff, such as Bryan’s stuff. Demon Erasers rulezzz!! I do suspect I have some demons to get rid of. Like Bryan, I am comfortable saying “I DON’T KNOW ANYTHING!”! I may never know if I have/had demons. But I know that I need to finish forgiving everyone, including myself. And I need to finish dispensing with my pride.
For me, the most difficult part of the deliverance process is having faith in Jesus.
I want so badly for Jesus to be God/the Son of God. I keep praying for clarity on this. God knows I am a crazy man who is 100% after His Heart and the Truth. I suspect He is not yet giving me full confirmation about Jesus because He knows that I may get lazy if I am totally certain about Christianity. He wants me to keep giving all my time to this pursuit.
There are sooooo many more details that I want to share but I will wait until I meet some of you and we get to talking. I want to meet y’all! Love ya guys!
Dean
2026.07.24
P.S. I linked a youtube channel that I just created. It is currently empty but I want to post some simple content about God. My goal is to get enough subscribers that youtube will allow me to go live. Then, I want to have live discussions about all this with people! 🙂
P.P.S. I checked the box indicating that I am single and looking to marry. The truth is complicated. The mother of my son “broke up with” me. (I say that in quotes because we are “together” when she wants a man and we are apart when I am not being the exact man she demands.) I love her but she is high drama. I will NOT post any drama, which means I cannot talk about her. I will leave it at that. Last thing I will say is that I am technically single but I am not looking to meet anyone. That is not why I am here. (However, if an incredible woman came along…… 🙂
